Re: Our Little Recap

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:03 pm

"Yeah, I'm looking forward to it!" I grinned. "We're planning a party, want to be a part of it?"

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:13 pm

"Oh, sure! That sounds like a lot of fun!" I replied quickly, "So when is it?"

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:15 pm

"Whenever she gets released! We'll be setting up and decorating all morning!" I grinned mischievously. "We haven't decided on a theme yet. What do you think? Princess themed? Legend of Zelda?" HMM.

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:18 pm

"I don't know, that all sounds so fun!" I was really eager to see what they all had up their sleeves and get to know them more, especially Elijah.

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:23 pm

-A Day Later-

-Katie-

I sighed, sitting on the porch and watching the rain run off the roof and onto the grass below. Our yard was a pond because of all the low places in it. I half expected to see fish swimming around in it. I rested my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands. I leaned forward and frowned. There was way too much going on for my liking. I felt so selfish though. I didn't like this feeling.

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:29 pm

*Ian*

I'd just come home from getting things for everyone, I'd recently become the back up errand runner when Zack was at work or school, it was raining and had only started after I'd come out of the store. I walked up the path way from the driveway and saw Katie sitting on the front porch.

"Katie?" I smiled a little as I approached her and sat down, soaking wet, "Hey..." I leaned over to try and see her face, "Kat..."

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:32 pm

I turned to see him and offered him a small smile. It felt weird. I was used to big smiles, but I didn't have the energy for that much anymore. "Hey, Andy's inside. She's napping on the couch and Elijah is at the hospital."

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:37 pm

I sighed, "We haven't talked in a while and I'm with Andy all the time... you can talk to me." I knew she would normally go to Zack so maybe she didn't really want to talk to me now.

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:39 pm

I sighed. "Ian... I'm really lonely. I mean, we have a house full of people, I even share a room with Andy... but I've been feeling really lonely lately and I'm not sure why."

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:41 pm

I rested my elbows on my lap and put my grocery stuff aside for the moment as I contemplated her words. Everything was changing, Amanda had cancer and I was not only about to become a husband but a father too. My heart raced.

"Neither of us were lonely three years ago..." I said quietly, "We were best friends."

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:46 pm

I nodded silently, my throat tightening. It was so easy to cry recently. "I miss that a lot... but Andy needs you and I don't want to take you away from her by constantly hanging around you two, but... Zack's barely here anymore. Sometimes I get to see him in the morning, but not as much as I used to. I wish he'd wake me up once in a while before he goes to school or work.. or whatever."

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:48 pm

I rubbed my eyes with my thumb and index fingers, "He's working hard... for your sake. As for me, I need to chill... it's hard being a first time father and knowing what's going to happen. I want to know what to do and how to handle this... I don't want to be afraid that I'm going to miss something and I just feel strained. I miss you, Kat..."

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:51 pm

"I know he is..." My eyes were watering now and I wiped at them. "And I miss you too. I miss going to the mall and doing nothing... and being able to talk to you about everything and being so confident that nothing would ever change between us." Okay, now they were tears.

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:53 pm

I felt stabbed, I knew most of that was my fault because I made mistakes, I knew she was hurting had no idea what I could do to help her feel better.

"I miss all of that too... but as for coming to me, you can come to me whenever you want. Our conversations don't have to change just because I'll be married... or because I'm becoming a dad..."

Both things scared me.

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:56 pm

I rubbed at my tears. "It's my fault too. I let Zack come between us and I started ignoring you before you met Andy. I'm sorry, Ian. I had no idea it hurt this bad to be left behind. I feel like a bad sister sometimes too. I mean, I should be happy for you, but I'm really finding myself jealous instead."

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 7:59 pm

The idea that I made her feel that way was killing me inside, "But... I never even thought that, I was so happy you found love and I just wanted to see the best for you in the end. I didn't know it would hurt this bad... even after finding love, to feel like losing a best friend in the process..." I frowned deeply and wrapped my arm around her shoulders, pulling her close, "I'm always going to be here though, Kat..."

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 8:04 pm

I hugged him back and cried in his shirt for the first time in years. I missed my brother's hugs. "I don't want us to get so far apart again Ian. It really hurts. You're my best friend in the world and I don't want to lose you."

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 8:47 pm

"I know, I miss you too." I hugged her tightly and made sure she knew I was there, I was always the one to watch out for her, to make sure she never got hurt.

And if anything, give Zack a good scolding because he was making her feel bad. T-T

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 8:55 pm

I hugged him tight. "How do I act around Amanda too? I haven't been able to go see her much since she lost her hair and I'm having trouble being optimistic." I sighed. "That's weird to say, I'm always the optimistic one. I really want to stop moping, but it's hard."

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 8:58 pm

"You just need to go see her, she's really great to talk to and she really doesn't let anyone know she's feeling sick. Although Elijah caught her in a bad place when she didn't know he came in..." I sighed, "She needs us."

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 9:03 pm

I nodded. "She's coming home tomorrow... maybe I should be the one to pick her up? Or I could just settle for a great big hug when she gets home." I sighed. "Do you ever miss the old days when things were simple and we drew on Mom's belly and the walls? And remember when we chased that little kid down the street for like, two blocks because he knocked Elijah down and made him cry but wouldn't apologize?"

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 9:09 pm

I laughed, "We're the guardians... you know, we have to take care of everyone." I said with a smile, "I remember when Mandy got a crush in middle school and we both interrogated him and he ran off crying. She was mad until she realized that he was just a jerk anyway. Oh and when Eli tripped and almost fell down the stairs and I caught him on my back!"

Then I remembered she'd asked something.

"Go pick her up. I think she'd love it."

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 9:13 pm

I smiled. "Okay, I'll do that. Sister time will be nice. Oh, remember when you rescued my doll from that evil girl? I still have that doll in my room. I only kept it because you saved it for me!"

**Ikuar** Mon Mar 21, 2011 9:19 pm

"Yeah, it's good to spend time with her too, maybe you can take her out to eat, Eli says she's lost a lot of weight." I said, "You might not recognize her... she's changed a lot." I frowned a little and then smiled at the next part of her sentence, "Oh yeah, I remember that."

**Jayrin** Mon Mar 21, 2011 9:23 pm

I frowned. "I'll take her to her favorite restaurant then... what's her favorite? She never told me and it's always changing with her." >.<;;

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