Re: This Is Why I'm Here... 1

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 9:24 pm

"Well, I was standing on the bus on the way here, right? So yeah, I was just standing there, minding my own business and this person grabs my butt! So I turn around and was all: 'What are you doing?!' It was a girl! I mean, oh my fork! And she was all: 'Oh, I thought you were a lesbian.' I mean, what?! Do I look like a lesbian?"

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 9:26 pm

I couldn't help but laugh, "Wow... no you don't look like a lesbian, Kim..." I felt really nauseous all of a sudden and tried to hide it. "But that's just kind of mean, I would have done more than just said something I probably would have hit her with my purse or something... but then there could be a pretty bad fight so I dunno."

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 9:29 pm

"Yeah, and I wanted today to be a good day. Days just go really south if they start off with a fight, you know? Anyway, how has your morning been?"

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 9:30 pm

I shrugged, "It's been okay, I couldn't fit into my favorite jeans because I spent all yesterday eating ice cream and then Kyle made french toast for breakfast." I decided to leave out that I was feeling sick again. OnO My chest was on fire.

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 9:37 pm

"Oh yum! Hah, maybe you're pregnant!" I grinned. "Nah, probably not! Just joking! Anyway, I don't think you're fat! Maybe your clothes just shrunk? That's way more likely!"

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 9:40 pm

I stopped in my tracks and just stood there with a blank look on my face. I wasn't sure what to think of that first comment at all.

"maybe you're pregnant!"

Could I be? I looked at Kimberly and just stared at her. "Say that again?"

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 9:55 pm

I stared at her, confused. "Maybe your clothes shrunk...?"

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 9:56 pm

"No, not that part! I... I might be pregnant?" I sat down on a bench outside the class room and stared at the floor, "I might be pregnant..."

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:00 pm

"Uhuh... yeah, I suppose you could..." I smiled. "Aww!!! Your babies will be soooo cute!!!!"

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:01 pm

I couldn't believe it, I really couldn't even though I'd had some pretty obvious symptoms... I sighed and stood up hoping that I could focus on class while this was on my mind.

"Okay, um... I'm not going to say anything about this to Kyle." I said as we finished the walk, "It's not for certain."

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:04 pm

"Oh yeah! Best not to get his hopes up! I imagine he'd be pretty excited!" I grinned wider. Was that possible? "Anyway, we have a test next week... we really should study!"

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:10 pm

"Yup, we should." I hoped that I could focus on that too, oh geez... what had I gotten myself into?

Later that evening I found myself in the bathroom with a pregnancy test. I had to wait on it so I went to examine myself in the mirror again. I couldn't tell if I was showing or anything, I probably wouldn't for a while.

Bah. T-T

Was I even ready for a baby? Were WE ready for a baby? This was terrifying and we were both trying to make ends meet as is. How could this happen so soon?

Oh duh.

Dang it. I went back to the bathroom and then sighed when I looked at the test. It was pink and a plus sign.

Pregnant

Why did it have to say that? I was happy I suppose... I was scared too. I nudged the bathroom door shut and then fell to my knees with my hands over my head. I was shaking, I wasn't sure if I was even ready.

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:23 pm

I came home later that day... I had the day off! "Honey, I'm hooooome!" I grinned happily. "Where arrrre yooooou?"

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:25 pm

Oh no. TT-TT

I wasn't ready to tell him, it would stress him out so badly and I was scared of getting stressed out myself. I tossed out the pregnancy test and shoved it to the bottom of the trash can.

"I'm in the bathroom!" I called and opened the door, "But I'm coming out now!"

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:27 pm

"Oh look! There's my beautiful doll!" I hugged her softly and kissed her neck lovingly. "You, Missy, are wonderful."

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:31 pm

"So are you?" I kissed him and wrapped my arms around his neck. I should have told him then and there but I backed out, I felt awful, I felt like a bad wife. T-T

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:33 pm

I kissed her and picked her up, planting more kissed on her. "What, you're not sure?" I grinned. "Hah, thanks for the confidence!"

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:51 pm

"OH! Oh sorry! I mean... you're wonderful!" I hated being so distracted. Ahh... T-T I had to figure out a way to tell him.

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A couple weeks later I'd resorted to buying some maternity jeans and new tops, I hated spending my money on clothes but with this baby occupying space I'd be getting bigger soon.

I wondered if he'd figure it out. I even had the first ultrasound picture and I really should have told him and let him come with me but I was still scared. And there he sat at the kitchen table eating breakfast and I was standing in the doorway in my new clothes... I didn't think he could tell... I hoped not.

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:56 pm

"Morning, sweetie!" I grinned at her. "Beautiful as ever this morning! I was wondering when you were going to wake up!"

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:58 pm

"Yeah, I've been a bit tired lately..." It kind of replaced the morning sickness I was having though so that was a relief. I sat down at the table and smoothed my shirt a little, it was long, like a dress, and covered the top part of my jeans where they should have buttoned up.

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 10:59 pm

"I've noticed! Staying up late to study or something?"

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 11:01 pm

"No..." I was beginning to get anxious and thought I was going to throw up but I just sat there and tried to figure my way out of this hole. "No... I was..." I stopped and began to cry.

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 11:03 pm

"Rhema? Sweetheart, what's wrong?" I asked, getting up immediately to sit beside her and hold her close. "What's wrong, my love?"

**Ikuar** Fri Jan 21, 2011 11:07 pm

"Nothing, it's just stress... I'm sorry!" I was about to tell him but I stopped, I was shaking really bad and it was hard to breathe.

**Jayrin** Fri Jan 21, 2011 11:13 pm

"Oh, I see..." I hugged her. "Don't stress so much. If it's too much for you though, I'll drop out of school for a few semesters and work though so you can get out of school pretty fast. I'm sure that's part of what's stressing you out!"

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