Re: This Is Why I'm Here... 1

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:22 am

"Okay, let's get that ready as soon as possible and then explain to them what's going on." I said. I finished off the conversation there and not a moment too soon, they were returning read for ice cream!

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:24 am

"Can I has starbellies now, Daddy?"

I snickered. "Yes, Katie. You can have some Starbellies."

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:34 am

-A few Months Later-

It was actually working. The twins had been continuously counting the quarters in the jar since we started. Now almost six months along they seemed to be getting that the baby not only rented out my 'space' but grew there too.

Ian would always stare at me as if trying to contemplate how that worked. His eyes were always wide and his brows were always a little bit furrowed. It made me giggle, I loved watching their curiosity.

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:39 am

"Mommy! Can the baby come out to play with me with my dolls?" Katie asked, holding two girlie dolls and two of Ian's action figures. She didn't know the gender so I guessed she was covering her bases and bringing an extra toy for her and Ian.

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:41 am

I looked at Katie, I'd been doing some reading since there wasn't a lot else to do. She was standing there with her dolls and Ian's action figures! How cute! <3

"I'm sorry, Katie, the baby can't come out and play, baby is too tiny right now and still has to stay inside." I patted my belly and the baby kicked in reply.

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:45 am

I smiled when she sighed. "Oh... okay..." And she turned around and headed back to her room. She came back though and had a princess blanket... it was her most prized possession. She walked up to Rhema and just laid the blanket over her belly. "Mommy, the baby needs to stay warm! Tiny things get cold! Right Daddy? That's what the man on tv said!"

I nodded and held my arms out for her to get in my lap. "Yup! Where's your brother?"

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:48 am

I giggled a little bit, "Aw, thank you." I said, I didn't want to keep it, she'd have it back soon though when she was about to leave the room I'd give it to her.

I spotted Ian peeking out at us, he was always just observing lately. He walked out and then hopped on the couch.

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:20 pm

I laughed. I loved both of my children so much! >u<

"Is the baby kicking?"

"The baby kicks Momma?!" Katie exclaimed. "Bad baby!"

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:27 pm

I nodded, "Yeah, the baby kicks but it doesn't hurt or anything." I reminded myself though that it does hurt quite a bit when they kick your ribs but... I wouldn't tell them that.

Ian was now staring at my stomach as though something was about to happen. I could only wonder what was going through his mind.

"I wanna see..." He said.

I wasn't sure what to say to that either.

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:34 pm

I snorted and Katie glared at the baby from where we were sitting. Then.... she did the unthinkable! She grabbed the knob on my electric wheelchair and began trying to steer me toward Rhema! I was laughing because... she was actually pretty good!

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:36 pm

All eyes were on me and it was starting to feel a little uncomfortable even if they were my children - and my husband. I sat up a little and sighed.

"Okay, so I know this is strange to you... not you, Kyle! But here is the thing, you two also grew here before you were born so it's not abnormal." I got up and walked out of the room and returned with a photo album.

"See? You two were here." I smiled and Ian stared at the picture.

What he said next made my face go red.

"Mommy you were BIIIIIG!"

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:42 pm

Katie jumped off my lap and I doubled over in pain. I'd have to talk to that girl about sensitive areas. T^T

"Oh!!! Mommy was big!" I watched her flip the page. "Look! Daddy has legs in that one!"

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:45 pm

"Ahhh, Daddy was tall!"

I found myself wanting to cry as I looked at these pictures, we were always smiling in them and yet we had shed so many tears back then. Some of the pictures even dated back to when I was dying of a heart defect.

That was only four years ago but it feels like forever...

Ian and Katie were so curious, I just let them look but I wanted to go somewhere and just cry for a little while.

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:49 pm

I smiled to her and patted my lap. "Rhema, come here." I knew she was still upset about my legs, even though I had long since gotten over it. I knew she needed comforting... and being pregnant again didn't exactly help her emotions.

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:51 pm

The kids were distracted so I took that moment to just sit with Kyle and cry, I wanted to cry but I didn't want to blame it on the baby. Sometimes I missed it when he'd pick me up and spin me around, or when I had to stand on my toes to kiss him, I'd kiss his chin instead of his lips.

But we were happy.

"I love you." I reminded him, it felt we never said it enough sometimes.

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:54 pm

I hugged her tight and kissed her neck a few times. "I love you more." I moved to her cheek and showered it in kisses before planting one on her lips. "I love you so much more than you could ever know."

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:57 pm

Ian and Katie had run off with the photo album, I'd have to get it back from them later but that didn't matter much at the moment. I hadn't had a time like this with Kyle, just a moment for us to sit and quietly love on each other.

Having children kept us pretty busy.

"Kyle..." I began, "I am going to start applying for jobs..." I said, I wanted to talk to him, but I don't know what made me want to talk right this minute. >.<

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:11 pm

"Well, if that's what you want." I ran my fingers through her soft hair and sighed. "I can't wait until I graduate and can make better money for us."

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:14 pm

My chin was quivering again, "Don't worry about it, I'll try to work as much as I can for now." I knew that meant giving up some time with our children and eventually the new baby too.

"We'll be past this soon enough."

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:20 pm

"Just one more semester after this and I'll be done. Don't worry too much, sweetie."

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:29 pm

"Okay." I kissed him and wrapped my arms around his neck. I knew things would get better soon.

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:34 pm

-A month or so later-

-Katie-

Today is Daddy's birthday and he's at work! We're baking him a cake! "When do we get to decorate Daddy's cake, Mommy? When it's done cooking?"

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 2:33 pm

"Yeah, we have to let it cool first though so we can put icing on top! Do you smell it?" We were baking a chocolate cake for Kyle's twenty-seventh birthday.

Ian was staring at the oven, he was always observing something.

"Mmm..." I heard him say. He went away from the oven and hopped up on a chair where the empty bowl of cake mix sat. He stuck his finger in and took some of it off the sides.

**Jayrin** Mon Jan 24, 2011 2:47 pm

I giggled! I like giggling!

"I smell it! I smell it Mommy!!!" I pressed my nose to the glass and watched to see if I could watch the cake cook!

But it wasn't doing anything. OnO

"Mommy, I dun think it's cooking..."

**Ikuar** Mon Jan 24, 2011 4:04 pm

"Hmm? Oh, it won't cook when you look at it because it's very shy. Come stand over here and help me make the colored icing okay?" I was putting food coloring in the icing and stirring it around.

"Oh, you too!" I took Ian by the arm and then lifted him up onto the chair. Uugh, lifting them up and being pregnant didn't go well together.

"I wanna watch it bake though." Ian mumbled.

"Nope, cakes are shy!" I handed him a bowl and told him to stir it around.

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