Re: This Is Why I'm Here... 1

**Jayrin** Tue Jan 18, 2011 11:09 pm

I looked up at him and gave him a weak smiled before flopping on my back. The grass was soft and cool. It felt good. But even if it didn't, I don't think I could possibly walk anywhere anyway. "I'll just stay here until I dry off..."

**Ikuar** Tue Jan 18, 2011 11:13 pm

Dad nodded and then went into the house to change his clothes I guess. I got up and walked down the back steps and over to Kyle so I could sit with him.

"Sorry about Dad... he's kind of random like that as you know."

**Jayrin** Tue Jan 18, 2011 11:17 pm

I turned my head to look up at her. "Yeah, it's okay. I learned something anyway."

**Ikuar** Tue Jan 18, 2011 11:19 pm

"Well, you won even though you lost..." I giggled, "I'm proud of you."

**Jayrin** Wed Jan 19, 2011 2:36 pm

"Yup. I learned that I can't fight at all... but your dad can." I looked up at her and grinned. "But yes, I won the greatest treasure my world has ever had."

**Ikuar** Wed Jan 19, 2011 2:39 pm

I smiled warmly and ran my hands through his hair before leaning down to give him a kiss. He was truly my night in shining armor, my safe place.

Wedding plans began shortly after that. I picked out my bridesmaids and my maid of honor and then my mom began to get some other things ready as well.

"How are your parents about this?" I asked as I looked through some magazines. My parents were out and about that Saturday.

**Jayrin** Wed Jan 19, 2011 8:20 pm

"Mom's excited!" I grinned. "She loves you! You know that!" I flipped through one full of tuxedos. It was my only task at the moment. To find a tuxedo we both agreed with.

**Ikuar** Wed Jan 19, 2011 8:29 pm

"Oh that's good!" I sighed with relief, "That makes me feel better..." I knew she loved me but sometimes she could love me, but not love the idea of marriage or something on that order.

I smiled. "I don't like wedding planning so far..."

**Jayrin** Wed Jan 19, 2011 9:09 pm

I nodded. "I feel the same way." I paused a bit, then remembered something. "Oh! I forgot something!" I held up a little butterfly keychain. "I saw this and it reminded me of you... so I bought it."

**Ikuar** Wed Jan 19, 2011 9:58 pm

I let out a loud giggle and reached for it, "This is beautiful, Kyle! C-can you put it on my backpack for me?" I turned around so he could see the zipper on my purple backpack. It was half open.

**Jayrin** Wed Jan 19, 2011 10:12 pm

I grinned. "Yeah!" I struggled with it for a few minutes before finally getting it on the backpack. "There! It looks wonderful!"

**Ikuar** Wed Jan 19, 2011 10:52 pm

I turned to look back at it and smiled, "It does! Thank you, sweetie!" I leaned up to give him a kiss and then hugged him tight, I had to be careful but it was okay.

**Jayrin** Wed Jan 19, 2011 10:54 pm

I hugged her as tight as I was allowed. My precious porcelain doll. "I love you so much... you know that right?"

**Ikuar** Wed Jan 19, 2011 11:13 pm

"How could I forget?" I replied softly, I could so easily fall asleep in his arms, he was so warm.

**Jayrin** Wed Jan 19, 2011 11:14 pm

"True, I never let you forget." I grinned and kissed the top of her head.

**Ikuar** Wed Jan 19, 2011 11:20 pm

"I never want to forget." I replied cheerfully.

**Jayrin** Wed Jan 19, 2011 11:22 pm

"Then I will definitely make sure I keep reminding you!" I reached up a hand and played with her hand a little. "I can't stop saying it. I just love you so very much."

**Ikuar** Wed Jan 19, 2011 11:43 pm

-A few months and lots of wedding planning later-

Kyle promised that we would check out the cake that day, he promised we'd get up early and eat out at Zeph's and then head to the bakery we'd commissioned.

I was excited to see just how good that cake was looking, myself. Three months earlier I'd moved in with Kyle and was almost finished with school. I'd already graduated and was free to do as I wished.

I undressed and looked at myself in the mirror before lengthening the tubes that supplied my oxygen so that way I could leave my tanks outside the shower. But while climbing in I felt a pain in my chest, it was uncomfortable but not unbearable. My arm was feeling strange as well. I rubbed it off and climbed in after making sure the water was just perfect, what I hadn't expected to happen was for it to get worse. But it did.

I gasped loudly and leaned against the wall before flopping over and hitting my head against the titled part of the wall. I laid there in pure agony, shampoo bottles fell and clattered behind me. I tried to call for Kyle but my voice wasn't there, I couldn't breathe.

God please help me... That was the last thing I thought before succumbing to darkness.

**Jayrin** Thu Jan 20, 2011 12:05 am

My eyes shot open for some reason. I can't explain it, I just... woke up. It was really early too. I yawned and looked at the clock. Thirty minutes before I usually got up. I shrugged and decided to get up anyway. Might as well. I wasn't very tired anyway. I rolled out of bed and pulled on some mediocre clothes, knowing Rhema would fuss at me for wearing them. I usually only didn't it to aggravate her. I stretched some and opened my door, heading to the bathroom to brush my teeth. I got to the door to find it locked and the water was running. Ah, Rhema's taking a shower. I thought to myself. Guess I'll wait until she's out. I went on to make breakfast. French toast, our favorite! I knew she'd love it, so I grinned to myself. Too perfect!

I got the ingredients and it took me about ten minutes to prepare it, and about ten more to get all of the bread slices cooked... but she still wasn't out yet. I frowned. Maybe she slipped into her room without me hearing the bathroom door. It'd happened before.

I turned off the stove and headed toward her door, passing the bathroom on the way. The water was still running, and the door still locked. Rhema's showers rarely lasted this long. Only when she had to shave... which she did the day before.

I knocked on the door. "Rhema love! I have a surprise for you!"

I waited a moment... no response.

I knocked again. "Rhema... you in there?" I called a little louder.

Still no answer. And the woman wasn't deaf. She always heard me. I looked down at the doorknob. I could pick it. I cursed myself, knowing if nothing was wrong, she'd murder me for seeing her naked. But still, I went to the office and got a paperclip, opening it up to push into the little hole, pushing it in and turning the handle. The door swung open and it was eerily quiet in the bathroom. The sound of the water falling was steady... it didn't change as if someone were moving. "Rhema?" She didn't answer. I gulped and pushed the shower curtain aside to see the most horrifying sight my eyes had ever seen. "R-Rhema!!" I slammed my hand on the faucet, ending the stream of water and picked my doll up. "Rhema? R-Rhema love!" The tears were forming as I tried to find a pulse with my shaking hands. It was faint, but there.

Oh dear, God. Please, please don't take her from me. Not yet! Not yet!

I reached for her robe and carefully covered her before picking her up and walking quickly into the living room, and out the door to my car. "God, please... please don't take her." I repeated over and over, in my mind and aloud. My face was nearly as wet as she was.

**Ikuar** Thu Jan 20, 2011 12:15 am

When I woke up I was in the hospital and hooked up to a lot of different machines. My chest was hurting really bad and I felt nauseous and dizzy. I saw my parents and Kyle outside the hospital room window, they looked really upset but I wasn't sure what had happened.

Of one thing I was positive though.

I knew it had to do with my heart... was I really dying now? Would there be a donor?

I vaguely heard the word 'concussion' and then he said 'heart attack'. I couldn't die now... I wanted to get married and have six beautiful children with the love of my life. I closed my eyes as my chin began to quiver and my mind flashed back to the day I gave Kyle my phone number.

Then our first kiss, our engagement.

I didn't want to go home yet.

**Jayrin** Thu Jan 20, 2011 12:20 am

I was still shaking, my mother to my left, Rhema's parents to my right. I was so in shock that they actually had to sit me down and give me an oxygen mask for a while. I had it off now, but I still couldn't believe what had happened. What if I had waited longer to check on her? What if I hadn't trusted my instincts and had just left her alone? Would my little porcelain doll still be whole?

Or would she be broken to pieces? Irreparable. Tears began to flow again. "I almost lost her."

"Sweetie, but you didn't." I heard my mother say softly, and rub my back. "She's still very much alive."

**Ikuar** Thu Jan 20, 2011 12:24 am

*Hanna*

"It's not your fault, Kyle, you couldn't have known she collapsed." I came to his level and put my hand to his shoulder before looking back at Jake. He seemed to be staring off into the distance.

He turned and looked at the three of us and smiled. "Our family doesn't give up too easily. She's a fighter."

I smiled, I knew he wouldn't be upset but that didn't hide the worry on his face.

"Oh... Kyle, she's awake..." I caught a glimpse of her looking out through the window, her eyes were half lidded.

**Jayrin** Thu Jan 20, 2011 12:28 am

I shot up immediately, looking straight at the beautiful girl looking at us through the glass.

I ran into the room without another word. I didn't care if we were or weren't allowed in. I was going anyway. "Rhema!" I gasped, worry and too many other emotions were fighting for my expression. I ran to her and grabbed her hands up in mine, kissing them over and over, then I moved to her face. "I'm so glad you're okay." I whispered. "So glad." I choked. I couldn't help it. I loved her too much. I think it was almost bad for my health.

**Ikuar** Thu Jan 20, 2011 12:31 am

I reached up and put my hand to his cheek to let him know I was still there, his face was still covered in tears and I wanted to cry too. I wanted to apologize for scaring him so badly and I wanted to just... be well again. I caressed his cheek gently with the back of my hand and then dropped my hand. I was exhausted.

"Ky...." I began to say, blinking to let him know that I wasn't dead. Dropping my hand the way I did could have likely scared him.

**Jayrin** Thu Jan 20, 2011 12:34 am

I broke out into sobs, hugging her softly and kissing her forehead. "You don't have to say anything, it's okay." I said, smoothing her hair. "I feel like I haven't told you I love you nearly enough, now." I gulped. "S-So I love you." I paused, letting more sobs come. "I love you so much. I was so scared I'd lost you."

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