Re: Our Little Recap 1

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 10:54 am

"Oh!" I had no idea he'd been saving up but that was so sweet anyway. <3 And I was hungry so it was perfect, not that I'd buy anything expensive.

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 10:56 am

And next thing you know, I'd parked the car and was holding the door open for a special lady of mine. "Let us eat!" I grinned happily.

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 10:58 am

I climbed out and immediately grabbed his arm, overwhelmed by a sense of fatigue and my skin felt tingly when I touched his. The pain was back and I had to catch my breath instantly.

"Sorry, I don't know what came over me..." I muttered as I stood up straight, it took every bit of strength I had not to cry. "Let's go!"

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:01 am

"Alright!" I could tell something was up, but she obviously didn't want to tell me so I kept my mouth shut. That girl was way too prideful.

I slipped my arm around her waist to help support her if she stumbled and led her inside. Soon enough, we were sitting in a nice, dimly lit booth!

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:03 am

It was far too romantic of a scene, something I thought I'd only ever seen in movies! It felt good to be sitting down but laying in bed almost sounded more pleasant.

"I'm sorry about seeming prideful... I just want everything to be wonderful tonight and I don't want to make you sad." I explained.

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:07 am

I sighed. How could I explain to her that I didn't care about moments so much as I cared about her? "Amanda, I don't care. If it makes me sad, so be it... at least I'd know. But if you don't want to tell me, I promise I won't push you."

What worried me the most was her word choice. Why would I be sad...?

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:10 am

I clasped my hands together tightly between my knees, shaking with every moment I didn't say anything to him about it, I had to and if I held off too long it would hurt him.

"The doctor says I have a tumor on my spine... I have cancer..." I gulped, "I sh-should have told you at first but I wanted to talk to you in person. It's too big to send through a text message..."

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:15 am

"I see..." I smiled at her. "Is it life threatening? And thank you for telling me." I reached my hand across the table, holding it there so I could take her hand.

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:18 am

I took his hand and squeezed it, skin still feeling really funny.

"Yeah... I'm being sent to a treatment center next week..." I was shaking a little bit, I was scared that he wouldn't want to deal with that, that having a sick girlfriend wasn't what he had in mind. "There's going to be a lot of chemo and... surgeries..."

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:24 am

"What day? I'll skip school and come with you!" I said quickly. "One day isn't going to hurt me, I want to go!" I was serious when I had said I wanted to do whatever she did. I wanted to be with her wherever she went.

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:34 am

I gaped at first, surprised that he was that serious, that he really wanted to be by my side that day. I wanted to cry, it felt so unreal to hear that. I learned more and more about him every day.

"Tuesday." I said, "I leave on a Tuesday."

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:37 am

"Then I'll skip school and come with you! I promise, I'll be there!" I squeezed her hand as a reassurance. "I love you."

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:39 am

I tilted my head and smiled to him, "I love you too." And I did, I wasn't sure that it was possible not to love him. I loved him with all of my heart.

"Okay, that's fine. I may not be a lot of fun to spend time with though, it'll make me sick..."

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:42 am

I shook my head. "You're always fun, don't say things like that!" I laughed.

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:44 am

"Thank you for not panicking... I'm scared of when the whole family finds out, I'm not sure how anyone is going to react... I've sort of been invisible the last couple years with everyone kind of growing up and stuff. Ian is getting married and becoming a dad soon and Katie and Zack... well... I think Zack wants to propose but I think he's really holding off on it." I smiled, "I don't like having attention drawn to me..."

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:48 am

"Well, that's good." I grinned. "That way I don't have to compete for your attention. I can have all of it." I leaned forward and kissed her hand softly.

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:50 am

"That's fine with me."

After dinner we just sat outside at the park, it wasn't too dark yet but it was getting there. I leaned my head against his arm and squeezed his hand, "I hope you know I'm still going to your game on Saturday."

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 11:54 am

"I never doubted it." I pulled her close and stared up at the sky. "The offer to carry you still stands, by the way. And you better catch those prizes I throw. They'll have your name on them."

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 12:00 pm

"I'll catch them!" I said eagerly, "I can't wait!" There wasn't any telling how long it would be before I'd get to go to another game, I had to cherish every second of it.

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 12:26 pm

"Good!" I kissed her cheek. "Oh, we need to go by the store so I can get you those flowers I promised!"

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 12:32 pm

"If we must." I sometimes wondered if this was too good to be true but then I felt in my heart that it was reality, this is just the way he was.

That night I stared at my flowers in deep thought. I looked at the pictures on my laptop, the ones that we had taken randomly by someone. I smiled, he was all mine.

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 12:47 pm

I stared at the glow-in-the-dark stars in my room and sighed. I'd rearranged them to spell 'Amanda' in a constellation. I found myself to be head over heels for her, but I couldn't help it. I also couldn't sleep. I grabbed my phone and decided to send a special someone a text.

Hello Love! I know it's late, but I'm having trouble sleeping. Are you? Sorry if I woke you up!

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 1:11 pm

I heard my phone jingle and reached for it, I was so fatigued but I couldn't sleep at all. Kara was sleeping in Mom's room right now so I decided to go ahead and call him.

I wanted to hear his voice.

**Jayrin** Wed Mar 02, 2011 1:14 pm

I phone began buzzing in my hand and I looked at it to see that Amanda was calling. "Hello!" I said with a smile, putting the phone to my ear. "How are you, my sweet?"

**Ikuar** Wed Mar 02, 2011 1:18 pm

"Tired..." I admitted, "Physically... but I can't seem to sleep, I'm so tired I can't sleep." I felt so weak it was unbearable and I just wanted to cry. "Aaron... can I be honest with you?"

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