Re: And he doesn't even know...

[Ikuar]

My face hurt but the softness in her voice felt nice. I smiled warmly and then looked to the left.

"Want some Sonic?"

[Jayrin]

"Yum! Sonic!!" I exclaimed happily. "Yum yum!"

[Ikuar]

So I picked up her favorites at sonic and we drove home to eat and talk about stuff.

I was still taking it all in.

[Jayrin]

I sat at the table and stared at my burger. "Will? Everything will be okay, right?"

[Ikuar]

I looked at her and nodded, "Everything will be fine, we have God." I took her hand and squeezed it, "We have to remember that this baby is a gift."

[Jayrin]

"But gifts can still be broken." I picked up a french fry and shoved it in my mouth. "But... you're right. You're right. We have God."

[Ikuar]

"What are you saying?" I frowned, "Are you saying something can go really wrong with the baby...?" I was confused, why was she talking like that?

[Jayrin]

"Well something could!! I'm just really worried... where will the money come from to pay for the appointments? I guess I could get a federal grant to help, but..." I groaned and took a huge bite of my burger. Maybe I'd stop thinking so much now.

[Ikuar]

I leaned back in my chair, "I know, I'm sorry..." I guess I hadn't taken it as serious as she was.

[Jayrin]

I swallowed and frowned. "I'm really sorry for being Debby Downer. I'm really happy about the baby! I am! I'm just really scared."

[Ikuar]

"No I know... I just need to step up and try harder for you and our daughter or son... I'm sorry." I got up and went to my laptop, I was going to make an attempt at finding a second job.

[Jayrin]

"No!" I ran to him and closed the lid to the laptop. "I can still work at Cato for a while!" I said quickly. "At least until I have three or four months left!" I shook my head. "No, you can't have two jobs and still go to school! You'll kill yourself!"

[Ikuar]

"But I won't kill myself, I can do this! We have to live somehow, it's not a fantasy world I have to provide at least until I can get my career going after I finish school, just another year or so and we'll be there." I opened the laptop again.

"Or maybe I'll just ask Nate for some extra hours." Nate was my boss.

[Jayrin]

"But I can work full-time at Cato for awhile! It'll be fine! We can get the money somehow! You don't need to work an extra job, that's too much for you!"

[Ikuar]

I sighed, "Then why did you make it sound like..." I slammed the laptop shut and leaned back against the back of the couch, running my hands through my short choppy hair.

"I'm sorry..."

[Jayrin]

I frowned. Everything we had done. The trust and happiness we had found in each other was slowly unraveling. "Just... do what you've been doing." I'd never voice my concerns about how we'd make it again. Obviously, he was uptight about it as well.

[Ikuar]

I sat up straight and put my computer aside, pulling her onto the couch gently and holding her in my arms, careful anyway not to hug her too tight.

"I'm so sorry." I kissed the top of her head, "I'm sorry..."

[Jayrin]

"Stop apologizing. I'm sorry too." I said in my usual stubborn tone. He'd have my stone heart melted in a few moments though. It never took him long.

[Ikuar]

"I hate to argue, I should have just sat quiet or something... I just feel like I need to do something every time the problem is in my face." I explained softly. "It's how I handle things."

Proof? I drove over night as soon as she called me about her parents.

[Jayrin]

"I know. But you can't fix everything." I poked his cheek softly. "Though sometimes... it really seems like you can." He almost made me totally forget about my parents more than a few times while we were settling their assets.

[Ikuar]

I laid down and pulled her down with me and wrapped my arms around her waist, "I can't, but I can at least make you smile."

[Jayrin]

I giggled. "You can! You can!" And there went my frustration. It fell when he tipped me backwards like that. I was too lazy to retrieve it though so I left it on the floor.

[Ikuar]

I kissed her gently on the cheek and laid my hand over her stomach, "We'll take it a day at a time, right now you just need to rest a bit." I was actually on the verge of a rather nice nap. >.>

[Jayrin]

A day at a time. I smiled. I liked that idea! "Okay... let's do that then." I said softly, yawning loudly and closing my eyes. "Tired."

[Ikuar]

I cuddled closer to her and then reached up and pulled a throw off the back of the couch.

And there we fell asleep, stress gone but only for a moment. But cherish that moment we certainly did.

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