Re: And he doesn't even know...

[Ikuar]

"Did you rest at all and how are you feeling today?" I asked, wondering if she'd been better than she was before. I had no idea having a baby could make someone so sick.

[Jayrin]

"I'm feeling perfectly normal for a pregnant woman! And I'm just a bit tired. I'll clean up in here, then go off to bed and head for work." I lied on the second part. I was extremely tired, but I didn't feel right going to bed without him.

[Ikuar]

Hugging her I took a moment to just take it all in and cherish that second when we weren't worrying about something.

But I hadn't realized how easy things were, stuff would only get more challenging.

[Jayrin]

I smiled. "This stuff can wait for the morning. Let's go to bed... I'm actually getting pretty tired."

[Ikuar]

"Same here." I said as I finished the pancake she made me. Then we went to bed, it was time for some long awaited rest.

[Jayrin]

-Quite a few mornings later-

It's been the same almost every morning. The doctor says the morning sickness should go away soon because it normally happens that way, but I might have it throughout the entire pregnancy. If that happens, though... I'll be really upset. I'll probably go insane, actually, and kill Will.

But then I'd be really sad.

I walked slowly out of the bathroom, dragging my feet with a frown. I didn't know what time it was, but I figured Will needed to leave for class pretty soon. "Only one. I don't want another child if I have to go through this again."

[Ikuar]

"That's just a phase, Sammy." I said as I finished working on a project via my laptop.

[Jayrin]

"If only you could experience this." I mumbled sourly. "If only."

[Ikuar]

I frowned but knew she wasn't feeling well and I didn't want to say anything to her that would get my head chopped off and served on a beautiful silver platter.

"I'm sorry... should I get some saltines?"

[Jayrin]

"Nilla Wafers are better, but you have to go to class soon so don't bother." I flopped down on the recliner that we brought with us. It used to be my dad's and was still just as comfortable as it was when I was little.

[Ikuar]

I consoled myself that she was just having moodswings but sometimes I felt like she was really beginning to hate me.

"A-Alright..." I got up after turning off the laptop and went to get my shoes on.

[Jayrin]

I grabbed the old bear Will had gotten me a long time ago and squeezed it tight. It made me smile. "Have a good day... I love you." I said softly. I would have asked him for a kiss... but I'd just thrown up so I didn't.

[Ikuar]

"Love you too." I replied and then I was out the door. I felt like a failure more and more lately so it was definitely time to step up.

I was going to do something unthinkable.

[Jayrin]

I watched him go and frowned. I was off today, and I hated those days when I was off and he was at school. They were so lonely, and upset me the most. On top of that, I felt like I was losing Will. Was I pushing him away? I tried not to, but that didn't mean I was succeeding.

[Ikuar]

I came back a bit late that afternoon and knew she might be on my case for it. As far as I knew she was really upset at me for all of this and I was feeling worse and worse.

But I hoped my plan worked, even though I knew it wasn't the best plan ever.

[Jayrin]

I was curled up, asleep in the same recliner I had been in when he left. I was so tired of being sick that I'd just sleep through the morning sickness. Sometimes I'd sleep too long though, like today.

[Ikuar]

Okay so I was home and she was asleep and I couldn't help but feel a bit relieved. I laid the gift box down and sat at the table, exhausted but too tired to go to sleep. >.<

[Jayrin]

I woke up, swearing I heard something. I was debating on opening my eyes or not when a huge yawn came to my lips. It was loud too. I opened my eyes and saw Will in the kitchen. "You're back? What time is it?" I asked, probably seeming a little bit confused.

[Ikuar]

I didn't want to tell her that I'd just gotten in so I decided to distract her from the fact that I was late and I felt bad for it.

I sat down in front of her with the box.

"I know it's been so tough lately... and I've been less than Prince Charming on a white stallion... but I want to do my best for you. Sammy,"

I paused and opened the box with the necklace.

"I've failed again but... will you marry me?"

[Jayrin]

I stared at him and the necklace box, finding myself still squeezing tight the bear he'd given me at some point. But I managed a slow nod. Was this happening? Was he actually proposing? "You'll always be my Prince Charming... though sometimes you misplace your stallion I think."

[Ikuar]

I nodded, she really didn't love me as much as she used to is what it felt like but I loved her more than words could describe.

"I know, I think it's lost right now." I latched the necklace around her neck. "I'm so sorry." I felt like the moment wasn't what she dreamed of.

Would I ever fix what I broke? T-T

[Jayrin]

I slipped to the floor in front of him and hugged him tight. Did he really want to marry me? I really hoped he didn't just want to try and make up for getting me pregnant. "Thank you so much." I said softly, trying to keep from crying. I hated crying... but this seemed like a good time to do it, if any.

[Ikuar]

"You're welcome." I held her in my arms and rubbed her back soothingly, I felt a little better but I'd be focusing on doing better for her in the long run.

[Jayrin]

And the tears started. Will... he could always make me cry, in either good ways or bad. "Thank you for loving me."

[Ikuar]

"You're welcome. Thank you for loving me too." I decided after that I would make home made Italian food for her as a treat.

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